Today has been hard. So very hard. No matter how many times we may go through it, losing a pet that means the world to us, is always hard and heartbreaking. As witches we try to heal everything and anything, but when you can't even heal your own dog, you feel helpless and wondering why you even bother. What is the point, if you can't even heal your bestfriend when they need it.
Today I said goodbye to my therapy dog, Barbie. Since she was 2 years old, she has warned me when I was getting depressed. She would get very clingy and not leave my side, always trying to cheer me up. It has helped knowing when she became like this, because I could prepare myself and it made it easier dealing and healing during the depression period. It will be hard not having this support. But she was 10 years old and getting afraid of everything. If you would drop something on the floor by accident, she would run upstairs and hide under the bed. Or run into the kitchen and hide in the crate that stands there. A dog that was not afraid of gunshots or sound at all. Who were getting more grumpier and would rather attack the other dogs, even if they didn't do anything, just because she was afraid they might do something to her first.
It will be hard to move on without her. 10 years is a long time. I wish they would live forever. It will be hard getting my depression periods now, not knowing when they will happen. But there might be a light in that. Our new puppy. A puppy I delivered myself, is showing signs to be a very sensitive dog, just like my Barbie was. I might have a new therapy dog. She is still a puppy, but she is showing signs. It will be interesting to see how she reacts when she gets older and when I get a depression period around her. Maybe this was Barbie's last gift to me, even if the puppy wasn't her own.
I love you Barbie and I know you will watch over me in spirit. Until we meet again...
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So many do not understand, they are part of your family. but remember, he won't actually leave. soon you will be feeling him close to you, sleeping on top of you, and he will patiently wait until you pass to be with you, side by side again.
Hi Regine ... so sorry to hear you lost your best friend. I had to put my 17-year-old Rottweiler down myself recently, and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done ... so I really understand your pain. It is a gift that you have your puppy to start and fill the gap in your heart ... puppies are blessings! Thank you so much for sharing!
Gotta have some silliness!
Sorry for your loss. I have lost many pets.
Sorry for your loss. She's on a new journey.
So sorry you have lost your close fur family member,
it is very hard when they cross over and we are left with a emptyness in our hearts
I am so very sorry for your loss... Hugs...